That’s how I feel as I tip-toe into this online world.
And, a little awkward.
www.priyadevalia.com was something I thought about for a very long time.
Now that I’m here, it’s like being a wallflower at a high school dance - resigned to your dorkiness but, still a little hopeful that someone might notice you and that you’ll be asked to dance.
Then you’ll really belong.
I’m not wholly convinced of my relevance as a writer. Neither am I certain I will have anything über clever to say to you.
In all honesty, what I want to do is hide and not actually engage in the nitty gritty of doing something that I always wanted to do. Facing the possibility of being a laughing stock or an insipid bore is not something that this reformed shrinking violet wants to be known for.
But, as fate would have it, the incredible E & D went right ahead and bought me my domain name for a year as a birthday present.
With the faithful midwifery of loving friends, www.priyadevalia.com is somewhat of a forced birth. But, it had been twinkle in my eye for quite sometime.
It’s just that I was both plain scared and a little stuck.
Ok, that was a bit of lie. I was a whole lot frightened and in a rut the size of Mariana’s Trench.
The reason? Well,…
I spend 99.99% of the time struggling with feeling NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
Since this little cyber bundle of joy www.priyadevalia.com arrived, I’ve been willing to put in the late nights and early morning feeding sessions to help it grow.
Like any progenitor you believe your offspring is destined for greatness (even if the reality is quite different). It still belongs to you. And, this makes all the difference. The many uncomfortable months in gestation remembered and its dependence on you to survive, all drive you to forge ahead.
There’s no turning back now!
Launching this site hasn’t made me any braver. Nor has it made me any more fascinating or pop culture cute.
But, I promise not to pre-empt your opinion of me if you actually stick around long enough to form an honest one.
www.priyadevalia.com is an exercise in “Not Good Enough” detox.
Stick with me for the year –let’s take the journey together and see what happens.
Join me as I kick the "not good enough” habit.
And, here’s me hoping that you will, too.
by Priya Devalia
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